things i'm thinking about...

an old mentor of mine once said "christians should never have secrets"...

if you get easily frustrated with someone for something you normally wouldn't care about is it because you just don't know how to love them?

season change

on thursday when i woke up everything felt different. that is the best way i can describe it...everything in me felt more alive. it took me nearly all day to work out what was going on. i was in worship at school and started to talk to God about it, the only thing i was thinking is, this feels like the first day of spring. which is kind of weird as it is the start of autumn (fall). And in that thought God spoke to me. He said you are exactly right, spring is in the air, the winter is over now, you have entered spring. so good! there is new life in front of me and i'm excited...
i've found it really hard to get excited about stuff these last few years, i've always wanted to be, but no matter how much i willed myself to be excited i couldn't do it! but now it seems so easy. I'm excited for what each day holds, everyday since thursday has felt like the best day ever! yesterday was amazing, school was really, really good. Bill came in to speak to us, the more he spoke the thicker the atmosphere got with the presence of God, it felt amazing. Then at church last night there was so much joy in the room, the guy preaching could barely get through his talk over the laughter. We had a "joy" tunnel, where we imparted joy to everyone who came through it, i've not had so much fun in a tunnel as i did then. After we were done with the tunnel and most people had gone home the fragrance of the Lord entered the room, it's such a sweet smell, so hard to describe. It was like an oil that appeared on our hands and came in waves, THE most incredible smell. I was left standing in complete awe and completely consumed with joy, so good! the smell didn't leave, even when i washed my hands, it stayed with me till i fell asleep, such beauty.
today i had coffee with an old friend, then browsed books in barnes & noble, had lunch with another good friend, came home to read a book i just purchased, i love today!
I bought the hiding place, it's the story of corrie ten boom i've read one chapter, and already loving it! i feel like it will become one of my favourite books. On friday bill talked to us about knowing the victories that those who have gone before us have already won. so that we don't fight a battle that someone else already got a breakthrough in. I find myself really hungry to know the stories of those who have gone before me. This is where i am beginning...